Bittersweet

In less than two weeks I'll be leaving UKM. It is time for this little birdie (me) to come out from her comfy nest and take her first flight. How time flies huh. I was 19 five minutes ago and now I'm about to graduate?

I still remember the first day I step myself into college. Young and clumsy I was. And still is. Heh. Haih I wish I could freeze the time but there is nothing I could do right now rather than appreciate and seize every single moment that barely left. By far, uni life is the greatest time in my life hm yet confusing. You meet new people, you fall in love, having butterflies dancing in the stomach, get your heart broken, explore new things, level up yourself in so many ways, meet crazy friends and you get really close with them as you spend most of your time with friends.

O spite! O hell! I am so gonna missed this. I have to face the truth that this awesome chapter of my life is about to end real soon. Ah. Takut nak menghadapi dunia luar. It scares the hell outta me seeing my seniors still struggling seeking for jobs and even some have been unemployed nearly a year. It stresses me out too seeing my friends going for Master degree and I'm here trying to be as ignorant I could be. Some will be flying to UK laa apa laa. I tried not to care about how good and excellent my friends and other people are doing out there but its so hard. So freaking hard. I know its not healthy to keep comparing yourself with others but I can't help it.  Not to forget, the expectation from parents. Scary scary world it is. But, I think I'll be fine as long as I have my loved one around. Its good to know that you're not going through this alone.

Yes, maybe I haven't figure out yet what I'll be doing,but its normal lah kan (self motivation).Sometimes it takes a little extra time but I will get up there. I don't what is it, when and how but one day I will. Right now, I shall focus on my internship and we'll see how my life gets me from there.
Haih. Sometimes, it feels like I grow up too fast. Yeah, I should stop growing. I wanna be 21 forever or 16.
Yeah. I'm gonna go for my ugly cry now.

3.49am

Sedih. Stress. 

Kalau sedih, ubat dia shopping atau makan. Tak dapat shopping. Cuci mata je lah.

Kenapa kenapa Steve Madden kat sini mahal sangat. Kat website Aussie tu jauh jauh jauh murah kot!

Stress balik.